WHAT AM I DOING

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I cant even vent out here what I refuse to believe, myself.
LOL! Never make yourself too available for someone who does not give the same back..

I give too much of myself to one, and only receive half of who they are in return.

BE A DICK. Lets try this out, see how it goes.

Who am I kidding, i know i cant do that.. silly.

Yeah I hurt people.. But only for 2 reasons.. Because i was stupid. Or because it was for the better... But never intentionally (p.s the grammar and punctuation on this blog i do not give a fuck about) yay.

Id like to be happy... As i wrote that, i actually smirked and went teary.. hahahaha..... Every year, on my birthday... Thats the only thing i wish for. To be happy.... AND for my family to be happy.

Speaking of family.... I always let them down...

Alot know my story.. Alot know what people portray me as.. But only a few know who I really am..

fuck this. goodnight

be strong, kenneth

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*sigh

here we go. a life of being.... dead. alone. and fucked up.




i wish i could pour out my feelings right here, right now. whats inside me has so much to say that my fingers cant type the right words. help

FUCK

i messed up. sorry. honestly.

I know i hurt you...

im sorry. truly

I need to workout :(

but it's too hot, and i cant be F*CKED

I booked my first Driving lesson

CMON, P's before christmas please.... I wouldve had them ages ago, if i wasnt so lazy :(